NoRiYu

Thursday, February 8, 2007

It was raining, but it was sticky. A typical rainy season in jakarta. But that day, us from WOMAN (Me, Angelina Sondakh, Alia Suyitno, Angie, Sisi) went to Petamburan. Hmm… so the 1st lady looks like that up close and personal… i liked what i saw when i shook her hand. (even more thrilled when she gave her thanks to us WOMAN for supporting her appearance there.. lovely lady).

And most of all, i love her jacket dat day, I’m a damned BURBERRY lover and her black BURBERRY coat-like jacket is awesome.

Enough about the fashion detail… it was a bit chaotic when the children were hungrily grabbing for the backpack dat says: AKU CINTA INDONESIA. Psychologically understandable, i can be sarcastic with this chosen goodie bag to the children. but hey…. just shaking the 1st lady’s hand, im simply content. Shudn’t betray my heart. ^_^

And later on at Coffee Bean (back to "fake" civilization), we’re interviewed for showbiz, in pink conveying HAPPY VALENTINE merrily for the valentine’s edition. Again, i can be sarcastic about this.

Ha3. We shouldnt constantly analyze, I shouldn’t constantly analyze..

Cant stay for too long to bitch and rap on nuthing. Gotta go to RSCM. toodle-o!

empty.

vacant.

torn.

hollow.

(whilst listening to Alanis Morissette’s So Pure)

Coz i’m "supposedly" ill, i’m being manja-manja and easily touched. I’m mostly touched by WW’s e-mail today.. (WW=Wimar Witoelar… im sure it’s public knowledge-lah…? yuppppp) so WW said, "as far as i am concerned NoRiYu-lah yang memancarkan inner & outer beauty punctuated with scintillating sparks of annoyances haha -what is strange that such beauty should be wasted on undeserving finks and jerks - but they will never cloud the sparkle of the one and only girl of d pure saturdays."  the sweetest,w… first class all the way!! Love u soooo much!

i always shiver watching movies of troubled and yet very well-educated female writers, like Sylvia Plath who’s back in the 60s receiving her Fullbright scholarship in UK, and Prozac Nation as the piece written by Elizabeth Wurtzel who got scholarship to Harvard in pursuit of a dream. I could relate to how they feel; NOT YET creating masterpiece and battling with themselves. The result could be death, or a way of life gone bad…

I’ve also been thinking of Hemingway these days… he’s manic depressive so they said… he spent his meaningful life journey, writing "The Old Man and The Sea" in Cuba. I bet he was drinking lotsa Mojito while he’s writing. Speaking of Mojito, I miss my fren, Catz, who’s stranded in Tg.Benoa, Bali, running The Bali Khama Hotel as the CEO… (hows fly fishing, Catz?? Have u asked Adi what fly fishing is? I need to know. Pronto!) and when am i ever gonna visit your hotel for honeymooners wif such unique-modern-kewl design?? will i ever be on a honeymoon?? ouch…. ^_^

I’ve been bedresting on-and-off for a month now… I’m sick but life simply wouldn’t stop. I want to put it on hold, but I can’t!! I’m on more than 1 projects (call me: GREEDY!!! & irrelevant, screwloose, whateva), I just finished my exam at FKUI, that means i’m officially a senior psychiatric resident. getting closer in becoming a Psychiatrist… weeeeee nutz…  But seriously, being ill means my life is flashing before my eyes…. especially, my 7 deadly sins! Fortunately, another dear friend of mine, Syaharani, had just gone thru the same shit, she was bedresting for the past week but as clearly understood (by me), she gotta get up and go back to singing again!!!!! (true dat d world doesn’t wait on us… but sometimes, the courage to retreat and be outside your conflicting-ego-sphere-of-life is a sign of self-victory which iv never been able to get to that point) she’s obviously my favorite Indonesian singer…she’s got class, style, and the mellifluous voice…and most of all, she is who she is. Not stuck in a masquerade of trying to become someone she’s not.

I’m outie. Got a presentation prep to finish.

incredible mood swings.

but… but… first and foremost, i’m in love… he’s AWESOME. and i don’t wanna know where this one is going, all i know is i’m in love and he is, too (even if he lies, im happy as it is…^_^).

secondly, i think i know what i want in this life… substantially, i know.

iv got a great soul to squeeze… and i will arrive at the places i’ve aimed to be..

INDEED!

I went to Tanah Kusir (ssshhhh… listen… it’s Red Hot Chilli Peppers… ow yeah i just bought RHCP’s greatest hits CD. all tracks are kewl!) today… a devotional visit to my late father’s, late sister’s, and grandparents’ gravesites.

I still shed a bit of tears when I prayed by my father’s gravesite. A good thing i was wearing my shades. In between prayer, REM’s lyrics were swarming in my head "That’s me in the corner. That’s me in the spot, like, losing my religion…" I did lose my belief in religion in 2001… after losing my father, a year after i had to lose my sister who was only 35, still so cute & pretty, having two kids (8&9 years old), she just won silver medal for DKI Jakarta’s squash team a year prior to her death… she graduated from Boston University and University of Delaware. she had everything i think.. but obviously she had to be elsewhere. and i remember how hard it was for me to go back to her house, 4 am in d morning, waking her children up and broke d news. can u believe how two beautiful lil kids would react to such news..? they were sobbing, hugging me & pleading for me not to leave them. they have their father, but maybe being with the auntie is the closest feeling they could get to being with a mother..

death is just around the corner. we’re standing in line to see the show…then eventually, to be in the show.

"wish u were here". either pink floyd’s, incubus’, or storm large’s…

a friend got PO juz cuz i was talking about d moustached guy… chill out, peconk… cant wait to go to Sea World or Dufan… Sea World, a touch of "Closer".

"A writer writes with no replies. Let’s be ridiculous with that irony."

I was having trouble sleeping last night but lucky enuff, a fren in Toronto and a fren in Helsinski kept me company thru sms. I wanna be where they are… But hey, this city is holding me back…

Where can I get Lukas Rossi’s headspin and ryan star’s and toby rand’s.. argh. cant wait for the finale of Rockstar Supernova!!!!! 

right now i need to be more inspired… i’m trying to be possessed so i could finish this moviescript for rako prijanto… so, i never write long enough here or submit an opinion to any newspaper, cuz i have to save up my imagination for the sake of my moviescript…

argh whats wrong wif djakarta so many mosquitos!!!! gtg kill these crazy creatures!!

Nothing new. Just keep on listening to music… now, fort minor’s CD. again and again.

a good fren called me up 2day. i was happy.

dunno what to write. gotta go to d doctor. ciao.

all i can say is that my life is pretty lame… i like watching the puddle gathers rain… _Blind Melon’s No Rain/modified_